My desire feels fluid, mercurial, deep, watery, fiery, fun, harsh, spiritual, primal, silly, frustrating, lunar, psychological, emotional, carnal, personal, transpersonal, intense, soft, violent, predatory, yearning, inaccessible, weird, relatable, ineffable, expressive, harshly rejecting, serpentine clinging, rajasic, tamasic, sattvic, joyous, suffering, ecstatic, agonizing, the garden and the abyss, it’s Eros, logos, and Thanatos, it’s Kama, dharma, and moksha, it’s the experience of Plato’s anamnesis after harsh trials and ascending out of the cave, it is the womb that consumes, it is solar penetration into labyrinthine caverns, the bleeding mouth with ruby droplets luxuriously trailing down my neck